"A Little Bit of Randall in My Life" Jan. 27, 1983

January 27, 1983

It is one day before my 22nd birthday, and am I happy? NO! I’m terribly depressed. I know that’s unlike me, but I can’t help it. Now, I’m going to find out exactly why.

It couldn’t be because of last weekend. Oh, did I have a good weekend. (Except for Saturday when I went with DeeAnn and Patty, a friend of DeeAnn’s, instead of with Randall.) But anytime I was with Randall, I had a wonderful, absolutely, great time.

But then for some strange reason, I felt terrible about 12:30 a.m. Monday morning. I kept shivering for about 2 hours, then I got sick (literally). I had to stay home from work. I slept all day, and felt a little better Tuesday, but still didn’t eat hardly, and missed class. I came home from work to find a sweet letter from Randall waiting for me. He wrote it Monday, and mailed right away. What a doll!! I miss him right now so much. I’ll see him all this weekend though. Hip, Hip, Hooray!!!!

It is now 10:25 a.m. I’m not near as depressed as before. I think I’m still just tired from being sick and all.. I really do want to have a good birthday. What I dread more than anything is seeing Cam. Oh yes, on my birthday is the day I have to face him for the first time since our fight. What a time! Right? Well, tomorrow night is also the Barry Manilow Concert. I’m so fidgety about seeing Cam that I haven’t put much thought into enjoying the concert. I wish Randall could go to the concert with me. It will be just Sherri, DeeAnn and I. I will sit between them so I won’t feel the slightest bit alone. We should be home about 11:30 p.m., and then Randall will come over to a quiet evening just the two of us. (I hope that’s okay with him.) Somehow I don’t think he’ll mind. Maybe we can have some wine, a roaring fire and get to know each other better. I mean it literally. I feel like a good heart to heart, and I think I want it to be him. It’s about time for him to get to know me even better. He’s got to know that I’m not always fun and games. I do have a serious side too. (Right now, I feel like I’m going to cry.)

I have one hour before lunch. Yuck! I kind of feel like going shopping. I will. I want some black pants to go with my tux shirt I wore New Year’s Eve. That would look cute both for work and the concert. I also would like to find something to wear Saturday night since I’m having a birthday party. But I can’t spend too much money. It’s going to be hard enough to find black pants that I like.

It is now 11:15 p.m. I am ready for lunch!!! After lunch, I’ll be ready for it to be time to leave work. I have never wanted to leave work so bad, until I met Randall. I just always want the weekend to come.

I am back from lunch. I bought some cute black pants at Pic-a-dilly. That’s a good store, and I found just what I wanted. They were $19.95. As my Aunt Gladys would say “They were a “BARGAIN” (TEE HEE!)

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I JUST wanted to say that I’m not depressed anymore. It is now 3:50 p.m. I am ready to get off work though. I hope Theatre class is fun tonight because I need something really fun to get me through the night until tomorrow,

MY BIRTHDAY

January 31, 1983

Monday

Hello World!! Do I feel great today! I had such a wonderful weekend and birthday. First, Friday night the Barry Manilow concert was wonderful. Even though Cam was there, I only actually saw him one time and I did quite well. I heard his voice every once in a while, and that irritated me, but I got over it. Tia Rae went to the concert with DeeAnn and me, and the three of us had a ball. By the time I got home, it was really too late to do anything, (besides Mom and Dad were still in town), so I went on to bed.

The next morning I was awakened by “Hello Sweetheart!” It was no other than my Randall. It was 10:00 a.m., and he invited me over for breakfast. He made me pancakes, bacon and milk. They were good. (His parents were out of town.) We stayed there until about 1:30 or 2:00 p.m., and then went to his grandparent’s house on Lake Ray Hubbard. It’s so nice out there. I didn’t get to meet his grandmother, but I met his grandfather, Aunt Joan and her husband (I can’t remember his name), and cousin Charlie, about seven. They were all very nice. We then saw his dad’s boat (It reminded me of the one in Jaws), and went home about 5:00 p.m.

Later that night, I had a birthday party. Mom and Dad are gone out of town and Kevin had a green and white cake for me. He is so thoughtful, he also got me a green tee shirt that has little Pegasus(es)? Sp? Across the front and DALLAS underneath. It’s really pretty for a tee shirt. A lot of people came, including Shane and Kathleen, and all of Randall’s soccer team and some of their girlfriends. Of course, Randall was there, Barry and DeeAnn. Neither Sherri nor Robert came, but I did not miss them. You know, I thought I’d really miss Robert a whole lot, but I really haven’t. I’m glad. Oh, Robert Young came to my party, and I haven’t seen him in ages. That was nice. Kathleen got me a jar of green M&M’s.

(2021 comment - now I “know” who the guy was in the army uniform at Robert’s Halloween party! - Robert Young)

Sunday, Randall came over after I cleaned the house and he did his homework. Oh, he’s a regular doll. Dee Ann really likes him. I mean better than other guys I’ve dated. That means a lot to me. Later, DeeAnn and I went to his soccer game to watch he and his buddies whoop the other team, 19-0. It was funny. Randall made two goals and on the first, I whooped so loud, everybody stared. I turned bright red. DeeAnn got a kick out of that. After the game, Randall had to go back to Denton (NTSU) for another week. Boo Hoo! He asked me to write him, so I will tonight.

Tonight, Keith is taking me to a formal banquet for his work. All the big wigs of Wyatt’s Corporate offices will be there, and Keith has to make a good impression. It makes me feel good that he wants me there to help give a good impression. That ought to be fun. I like things like that.

I have to go for today. Life can really be kind to me!