BACK TO OLD BOYFRIENDS - SOME ARE SILVER AND SOME ARE GOLD - SEPTEMBER 1987

SEPTEMBER 1, 1987

Tuesday

I had a good time last weekend. Everything has become resolved between me and Randall, fun with the Singles Group and meeting a new intriguing guy. Here are details!

FRIDAY - First of all, for lunch Elaine and I went outside. She just broke up with Terry, her boyfriend, and we downgraded men for an hour. It was fun. The weather has been beautifully and unusually cool, so we sat outside. We got to talking about Carlos and Ricardo and it really made us want to see them. Elaine remembered that they may be coming up around November. That’s what Carlos said the last time he was here. That'd be great! It would really be fun to see them again! Stupid me, never got their address. Can you imagine? It finally hit me on Friday that we never exchanged addresses at all. He did have my phone number though. Hopefully they’ll really come and really call.

Walking to the bus that evening with Sherry Yates (a friend at work) we passed by the Doorman of The Plaza Hotel whom we pass everyday. A few days before, I noticed him for the first time and he said “HI!” But that day, he stopped me and said he’d like to talk to me. Sherry giggled and went on. I said “Bye Sherry” and he said “Bye Sherry!” It was kinda cute. He said he wanted to know all about me. I told him what I could, especially churchwise. He seemed quite impressed that I was the President of the Church Choir. I talked to him for a while, then had to go. I was delighted with his attention.

I mixed my two groups that night and Mark, Louis and LaReshia came to the movies with Barry, Sherri, Randall and me. We saw Back to the Beach with Annette Funnicello and Frankie Avalon. It was cute. We all enjoyed it! I never thought Pee Wee Herman would make me laugh so much! Pretty funny stuff! It makes me want to see Pee Wee’s Big Adventure.

Before we went to the movies, Randall came over about an hour early to (as he referred to it) become reacquainted. I stayed away from him quite a bit, trying not to hug or touch him until we talked. One time, he grabbed my hand, (he was lying on the couch and I walked by) and he wouldn’t let go. I told him that he was going to have to hold on hard this time around. He pulled me to him very strongly to where I fell over the back of the couch with him. When I did, he kissed me. I tried to get away. Finally succeeding and both laughing, I ran to the bathroom to fix my hair before everyone else got there. He walked in to watch. Bending over brushing my hair, I looked up at him and asked “Aren't we mad at each other?” He replied “You may be… but I’m not.” Then he raised my chin and said “though you may have had the right to be.” This immediately made me say “Well, you had a right to be tired. I realize that sometimes happens, I was just very disappointed on that particular night.” Then he said (which I loved) “Maybe we both had a right to feel how we felt.” That made me hug him and feel good. I knew I had a lot more things I wanted to say to him, but this was good enough for that night. He said he felt bad that week until the following Wednesday or so.

After a while, LaReshia showed up, followed by Mark, Louis, Sherri and Barry.

The next day, Louis came to pick me up and we went to see the Impressionist collection at the Kimbell Art Museum. Weird day! We seemed to be at each other’s throats for some reason. Louis didn’t seem to understand anything I was trying to say. It made me feel he doesn’t know me very well. Of course, I guess he really doesn’t. But I thought he knew me better. I don’t know. It was just a confusing day. But… the museum was marvelous! Am I a Renoir fan, or what? Oh my goodness! I was in heaven looking at these classics! It was beautiful! I told Louis he was my ethereal friend, but he denied it. (see? The day was very strange.) We had a blast, though, eating a huge 40 cent ice cream cone at McDonalds. I giggled a lot. I love to laugh. HA HA HA! Loud and long and clear! (TEE HEE!)

(2022 at the Kimbell Art Museum, I bought a puzzle and calendar that featured the Monet "Girl in the Garden" - going down hidden staircase that always rememinded me of the Long Island stairs I found behind F. Scott Fitzgerald house.)

That night, I went to the “West End Marketplace” with LaReshia, Louis and Mark. We had fun, I guess. Louis and I were kinda arguing, but not really. Mark was moody. Thank God for LaReshia!

Sept 2 - Lunch with Edwin - WHO the heck is Edwin?

Beatles costumes/uniforms from the Beatles Museum This dinosaur museum was the first time the robotic dimosaurs were shown/presented. They looked soooo real!

SEPTEMBER 9, 1987

Wednesday

I DON’T know what all I’ve written, but I thought I’d catch up on some news. About Louis. Here’s a little in-depth analysis of our relationship.

Louis Marroquin - Hmmmm… I really started getting to know him last December (shortly after John’s and my break-up.) I first met him a year before that, but we went out socially one week after our (John) break-up to On The Border. He made me laugh a lot. I never would have thought that earlier. Shortly thereafter, we went and saw The Morning After and went to Bennigan’s. He seemed awfully serious to me and SO extremely religious that I didn’t feel comfortable around him that night. We loved the movie. I just sorta thought of him as a possible prospect in a relationship; mainly because Bea (one of my best friends) has always talked so adoringly of Louis, I knew he had to be special. She said he’s romantic and fun-loving.. She even compared him to me many times. From her description, he sounded like a male me… just a bit more shy. Anyway, we didn’t do much more until New Year’s Eve. I hadn’t thought more about him.. In fact, I was still rather hung up on John. But New Year’s Eve was great! I spent it at Ken and Melinda’s with Diana, Bill and Louis. It was one of the best New Year’s Eves I ever had. At midnight, everyone hugged everybody and Louis kissed me on the lips. (I expected to kiss him on the cheek and he turned around.) It surprised me!

Louis is very interesting. He shares interests with me such as music (same types,) good movies, art, etc.; not to mention how to have a good time and know how to laugh then turn right around and can talk seriously.

I guess I don’t have to say much more. I’ve said much at other times about Louis. Up until our talk the other night, I never knew where I stood with him. Well… on the phone, I asked him point blank where we stood. I told him I sometimes felt like we were friends and sometimes more. I needed to know which it was. I answered my own question before long. He wasn’t extremely talkative that night, but he WAS extremely interested. I talked for him and said “You know what I think you feel?” “I think you find me attractive and all, but you’ve possibly thought about it before, and feel it’s better for us to remain ‘just friends.’” He said he couldn’t have said it any better. I felt so great after that conversation. At least I knew where we stood, and… I realized that’s exactly the way I wanted it.

SEPTEMBER 14, 1987

Monday

I had one of the worst weekends I’ve had in a long while. Well some events were pretty fun, but emotionally I was a wreck.

FRIDAY - I had been in a bad mood all day at work, and felt very annoyed by men. I had all week. Oh, my “Mr. Doorman” I do believe is rather irresponsible. We haven’t gone out or anything, but he has no money, no car and he can’t pay his bill… how is he supposed to take me out with all HIS problems? Forget it! He’s awfully cute and charismatic but that’s not very important when they’re irresponsible! Anyway, that night I met Don W., Mark and Louis up at church. We were going miniature golfing. I had decided that I was going to be in a good mood. And I was… for a while. I made three hole-in-ones at Putt-Putt and that was fun. When we left, we decided to go by my place and pick up The Charades Game. (2022 - If you read the calendar page up there - it says I played Charades with Louis, Mark, Don, LaReshita and Keith...)

SEPTEMBER 16, 1987

Wednesday

Goodness, Gracious, Sakes Alive! This past week (to a week and a half) has been emotionally distraught! But the last two nights have been fun and a slight break-through. Monday night I drove out to Arlington and Louis and I went to Friday’s, had two margaritas a piece, and talked up a blue streak. A good night! You know, he couldn’t believe that I’ve kissed a guy without dating him! If he was shocked about that, what would he do if he knew other things? Strange, but true! I mean, after all, I was in a kissing contest once, in fact I was a judge!!

Last night, I saw Tim on the bus and when I drove him to his house (from my parked car) I asked when we were going for happy hour again. I said we need to talk. He agreed. So I said, “Okay, when?” He said “How about now?” - We went to Two Pesos. He’s a funny guy. He thought I was sexually frustrated, insecure girl with severe hang-ups because I am a virgin. I never laughed so much! To think of me, with hang-ups? It was funny.

SEPT. 18 - SAW FATAL ATTRACTION WITH ELAINE

SEPTEMBER 21, 1987

Monday

Last night I finally had a talk with Randall. It was my “Poop or get off the pot” speech. I pretty much said “If there is something between us, let’s delve into a relationship, otherwise, let’s forget about it and go on with being friends. It worked. We, as I’ve always thought, are friends… with a strong attraction for each other which is something we’ll just have to deal with as we go along. Pretty interesting, huh?

Mark Hall is coming over tonight. We’re grabbing a burger then going back to my apartment to look at old cruise pictures. It should be fun! (I read him old journal entries.)

(2022 comment - He and I have always had this back & forth conversation about whether we really dated or not... THIS was a date. We really didn't have a "boyfriend/girlfriend relationship" but we did date over the years.)