Beware The Ides of March Pt. 2

March 7, 1981

Carl, Dee Ann, Mike (Dee’s date) and

I went to see this play in San Marcos. That night was a blast.

March 8, 1981 Sunday

Well, I’m back from the trip. I’m so tired, but I had a good time. Especially the nites. I do have a lot to write, but I’m dead beat right now. I’m a little worried about Carl. He’s one minute distant & the next he’s quite affectionate. I’m confused!

I’ll write more tomorrow.

March 10, 1981 Tuesday

Well, I’m ready to write about the weekend. On the whole, it was a blast. Even though I got quite depressed a couple of times.

Thursday nite, we stayed at Jester Hall (co-ed dorm) in Austin. Carl’s friends, Ross, Bucky & Dawn are real neat people. There were also two guys, John & Scott who were okay too. But mainly Ross, Bucky, Dawn, Carl & I had a blast. Ross is a movie buff too and he had a book with all academy award winners in it. Ross & Carl were acting out scenes from movies and we’d try to guess what the movie was. I laughed so hard I was crying. Carl was sweet to me that night.

Friday day about 4:30 p.m., we arrived at San Marcos where Dee Ann was waiting with open arms. (God, I love her). Scott F. showed up & Patty and a girl Patrice and we went to the cafeteria. That nite, we all plus Cheezey (Patty’s black boyfriend, who’s a doll) a guy Mike Bageley & Jon Boone went dancing. Carl was such a blast that nite. Everyone danced with everybody & we al finally got Carl to dance (especially after I kept pouring peppermint Schnapps down him). When the song Whip It played, Carl was the kind of the dance floor. I got so tickled at him. He was jumping up and down in circles. At one point he kissed me and I swear I hyperventilated. I’ve never done that before. I was afraid to kiss him again for lack of air. Seriously! I thought I was having a relapse of some kind. I loved it. Later that nite, when it was time to come home he kissed me sweetly and said “Thank You.” I asked “For what?” & he just said “Thank You” again. I liked it.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IIEVqFB4WUo

(2021 comment - THIS I remember as a lovely/fun highlight of our relationship - I canNOT hear “Whip It” w/o seeing us on that dance floor - had forgotten it was in San Marcos.. FUN!)

Saturday,(daytime anyway) was a big disappointment. First of all, Dee Ann & I lost Carl & Mike until about 2:00 p.m. Too late to go to San Antonio. Also, I started my period 2 weeks early. So I had cramps all day. But what was worse than ever is Carl was being a little cold to me. It seems Scott told Carl & Mike about us dating last summer. (Carl didn’t know). It made Carl mad that I didn’t tell him, I think. Anyway, I don’t know what Scott told him, but Carl was distant all day. Then that night, he was himself again. We went & saw Phaedra, then to Pizza and then to midnite movie of Halloween.

Before the movie started, some girls behind us were reading jokes from a Cracker Jack book. Carl leaned over the seats, and got the book. He flipped thru the pages then said “Hey everyone, can I have your attention please?” Then he proceeded to read every joke in the book with the audience’s reply. For instance, he shouted

“Knock Knock”

“Who’s there?” - audience

“Sam & Janet”

“Sam & Janet who?”

Carl - “Sam and janet evening”

The audience cheered. Dee Ann loved him. Carl then bowed. The movie began. Carl was 10 times more scared than Dee Ann or me. He hung on to me for life. Everything was wonderful again except he didn’t kiss me good-nite (ouch). I got a little confused & upset about that. He’s always so aggressive. (I like that).

Sunday was the worst. All day he kept his distance. Lord, I can’t figure him out. What does he want? He says he wants me to be more affectionate, yet sometimes he acts as though I repulse him.

After we got home, I walked him out to his car (he was dead from the trip). I reached up & Kissed his lips lightly & quickly. I thanked him for the whole trip.

I won’t see him probably for about 2 weeks. He’s going on a camping trip on Spring break. Dee Ann will be here though. I’m glad.

Dee Ann’s crazy about Carl. She thinks he’s great for me. He’s so much fun. I hope the whole problem was his terrible fatigue & not me. We did stay up quite late every nite.

Oh well! Gotta go!

Scott F. was a regular, repulsive macho man this weekend. He called all of us assholes. He’s changed. (2021 comment - it was weird… I reached out to him fairly recently when planning the SG & Lakeview 40th reunion, he had some brain injury and couldn't remember me at all.. He remembered Cheryl Tadlock- when he dated her in h.s.)

March 12, 1981 Thursday

Tonite I had a wonderful time. Sherri, kevin Q, Kathleen, Vera & 2 friends where Sherri works Randy & Marcus went to a play An Invitation to a March at Richland. It was awfully good.

Randy was especially nice and funny. (He’s only 18). He made me laugh so much I was hysterical. After the play, we all went to Lum’s. Randy begged to let him pay for my food so I let him. They all want me to go to some kind of party Sherri’s work is have Saturday nite. I may go, depending on when Dee Ann comes in that day.

Tomorrow is the day when Jim tells us whether or not we’re going to the Carribean. Lord, I hope everything’s going as planned.

I wonder how Carl is. I haven’t seen or heard from him since the weekend. I miss him! Too much. God, I went & got myself stuck on someone again. As always, I kinda somewhat maybe think that I could possibly be falling in love with him. I sure miss him a lot. Oh, I hope he’s missing me.

Gotta go!

I want Carl!!

1) Carl - No one else at all!!!

March 15, 1981 Sunday

I’ve been very busy since Thursday nite. Friday, Kevin Q, his sister, Nancy, Bradley (KQ’s friend), Mike, Vera & I went to Bennigan’s. Afterwards, we met Bill Hollomon at Up Your Alley Club. Bill & I left everybody & went to Carter Country. I had been down all night, missing Carl, so I was rather pleased that Bill was paying so much attention to me. We were supposed to meet Mike & Vera at Carter Country, but they never showed up. Bill ended up kissing me, even though I’m totally flipped over Carl.

Saturday, Dee Ann & I went to see The Elephant Man. It’s nominated for Best Picture. It was great! It really touched me.

Today, I went to Dee Ann’s church (Baptist). As always, I didn’t agree with a lot of things the guest speaker preached. He seemed very narrow-minded.

Nothing much else happened. Oh, Scott M. called from San Antonio at boot camp. Jim Brownson called & asked me out, but I said no.

I miss Carl immensely!! I hope he’s having a blast though. He deserves it.

Maybe a week with the guys will make him think more of me. (Hopefully)

Gotta go!

It’s 2:42 a.m.

I watched Dr. Zhivago and Finian’s Rainbow tonite. Neither were great. Yet, they were enjoyable.

I paid $150 towards my cruise today.

March 16, 1981 Monday

Not much happened today. I stayed home & relaxed while watching my soaps.

Tonite Mom, Dad & I went to B.C. & Therese’s for dinner. As always, Margaret was a doll. Bill & Aunt Lois came over later.

Dee Ann is real sick. I think she has the flu.

Today Alex has been dead a year. It’s hard to believe. But it’s true. I so dearly love him. We talked about what we’re putting on the headstone. We’re writing

Robert Alexander Boren

Loving Son & Brother

“Mighty Like a Rose”

I like that.

Gotta go!

I miss Carl!!

March 20, 1981 Friday

Today has been a strange, yet somehow fun day.

It began with a phone call waking me up. It was Carl. And for the sake of me I didn’t recognize his voice. We didn’t talk long. But I was so happy that he even called.

Later, of all people, Jim Brownson called. He’s been calling all week. So I told him that he could come by for a little while, but I had to be at Dee Ann’s by 4:30 (it was 3:00 then). He didn’t show up until about 3:45. We went & got a coke & came back. He kept grabbing a hold of me, but I managed to push him away. Finally 4:30 came & I left.

As I drove towards Dee Ann’s, I felt quite tired. When I got there, I suddenly wanted to leave. So much to where tears were falling. I truly can’t say what was wrong I just felt blue.

I finally left (after about 10 minutes) & went home to sleep.

After I woke up, I felt much better. Dee Ann & I went to see Popeye again. Then we went to Chili’s. Carl worked tonite & I was dying to see him. I dressed in my new white pants and green sweater & I looked pretty. I was really nervous. It’s as though we had never gone out before.

We hadn’t been there long when Sherri & Randy came over. They were there with Roger (first time mentioning Roger?) - Marcus & a guy, Larry. Carl came over when Dee Ann & I were alone & visited, but once we moved to Sherri’s table, he practically avoided us. I didn’t even get to say Goodbye to him. Oh, how I wanted to grab him & hug him.

Anyway, after that we all were gonna go somewhere else. Dee Ann was being very unsocialable. I know she’s rather sick, but she was practically rude. Anyway, Dee Ann & I got in my car and it wouldn’t start. Marcus tried to jump it with his car, but it didn’t work. We had to leave it there. Dad & I will have to get it tomorrow morning.

Roger & Randy drove us home. Well, Dee Ann anyway. After we let her off, Roger, Randy & I went to Dunkin Donuts. We had a blast. We went riding around everywhere & then about 1:30 a.m., they brought me home.

Gotta go!

I’m tired!

I’m gonna go by Carl’s tomorrow & give him his jacket. (I hope something turns up - hopeful).

I DO care for him!!!