BREAKING UP IS HARD TO DO - DECEMBER DATES - 1986 - Part 2 (Original)

DECEMBER 16, 1986

Tuesday

I had a good weekend. Here goes.

https://youtu.be/KklLsdWaoBU

(song from The Fantastiks - Much More)

FRIDAY - I went with Bill Flynt to meet Judy, Jan Anderson, Olga (all in my voice class) to see The Fantastiks. I loved it. Mark Hall was the lead, El Gallo. He was great. I really related the musical to me and some parts to John and me. There were two songs in particular; one “Much More” is the lead girl’s songs where she (Louisa, a 16 year old) talks about how special she always felt she was for some reason and she felt she deserved more than housekeeping and normal life. I loved it. Later in the second act, El Gallo (a Spanish bandit) and Louisa run off and look at the world. The song is “Round and Round” and they go out dancing and partying every night and nothing else. She soon tires of it all but he keeps going. Every time she seems something bad and it brings her down to earth, he gets her to put on a rose colored mask and everything becomes fairly tale-ish again. It just really reminded me of John and my relationship.

SATURDAY - I sang at La Bore’ Nursing Home. I sang The Christmas Song. Later, I babysat for Mary; Holly and Caroline. Mary went out AGAIN with Mike (a guy she’s been going out with quite a bit) a banquet then to a midnight movie of The Three Amigos. I spent the night. Holly and Caroline were exceptionally good.

SUNDAY - Was the best day of all. I went to church in the morning, of course. Barry visited, but I sat with Lous and Olga (Bea’s brother and mother.) After church, Louis and I went to lunch (he surprisingly paid even when “I” was the one to ask him to lunch) and had a wonderful time. We had a crazy waiter. He greeted us in the beginning with “HI HO.” After a while, Louis said “I don’t know if I like him or really hate him.” We decided we hated him. TEE HEE! It was funny. He (the waiter) did make for an interesting lunch. Louis and I had a lot of things to talk about. I’ve known him for exactly a year now and this is the first time we’ve done anything together. Afterwards, he came to my apartment and visited until about 3:30. A LOT of fun. We’re going to Melinda and Ken’s New Year’s party together. It’s going to only consist of Melinda, Ken (of course), Diana and Bill and Louis and me. That will be fun. I’m going to buy Scruples (a game) to play that night and take a couple of others. I’m really looking forward to it.

Later, Randall called and he, Barry and I went to see The Three Amigos and I loved it. We then went to J. T. McCords and looking at Xmas lights. It was fun.

When we came back to my apartment, the phone rang. It was, of all people, Kevin Knight. I couldn’t believe it. He said he was strumming his guitar and thought of me… hmmm…

MONDAY - So… we went to Snuffer’s (he had NEVER been there before.) That’s hard to believe since I have been SO many times. Right before he got there, I received a card from John. It said “Smile. Be happy and may this be the best Christmas of all.” Pretty general. Kevin then knocked on the door. We had a good time. Kevin just got accepted to SMU and was excited. We barely talked about John and it was all general. I mentioned at the first of the evening that I got a card from John and Kevin said “That was nice.” I knew then that I didn’t want to question Kevin at all about John or the break-up. It’s all past now. I truly feel like closing the chapter of this book and beginning a new one.

DECEMBER 18, 1986

Thursday

Last night I had Melinda and Diana over for Christmas cheer (eggnog and gifts.) I had invited Bea but she couldn’t make it. She had trouble (I think) getting Richard to keep the boys (3) while she came over. That’s a shame because we had fun. I didn’t give them much, just a two year calendar with “Footprints” verse on the front. I read them the letter I sent John and they were really pleased with it. Melinda asked if I ever thought about writing for a living. She thinks I’m good. It’s just I can get the point across and still be witty.

DECEMBER 19, 1986

Friday

Barbara had a miscarriage last night. Bless her heart. She has never had a child of her own and she so wants to have one with Bryant. But there are no problems and she is able to have another anytime she wants. I hope she gets to feeling better and happier before Christmas. I pray that she sees the optimism that she CAN get pregnant and there’s always hope. I love her and want the best.

Last night Randall came and picked me up from work and we finished my shopping at Target. I just had to buy a picture frame and a present for a girl here at work. I’m now finished. All I have to do is wrap a few.

You know, I really enjoy Randall. We figured out we’ve known each other for almost four years. It’ll be four years January 8. The same date is how long I’ve known Barry; of course, we all met at Adda’s pajama party. I sometimes am hot and cool (not cold) with Randall. Last week, I didn’t want him to kiss me, yet, last night I thoroughly enjoyed it. We have an unusual relationship.

DECEMBER 22, 1986

Monday

I had another good weekend. Maybe not quite as good as last, but still, very good.

FRIDAY - I went straight over to Mom and Dad’s and picked up Mom. We went to Sidekicks to eat, then to the Dallas Symphony and Chorus where we met Judy, Bill, Jan and a friend of Bill’s, Clara. It was held at McFarlin Auditorium. It was pretty good, but I was rather sleepy and yawned through a lot of it. Bill’s mother, Mariam, was supposed to go but couldn’t because she was sick. I would have liked Mom to meet her. She’s really spunky AND red-headed.

SATURDAY - Was a lot of fun. I spent most of the day resting and that night about 7:30 Sherri and Kevin came over. We visited until Randall and Barry came over (about 11:30; they had to attend an Amway meeting in Arlington) then we all visited and played “Scruples.” That’s a neat game wherein you ask people questions and they have to answer it and we determine whether they’re lying or not. It’s fun. They stayed until about 3:30 or so. Randall stayed a little later. I really enjoyed him again that night. I’m going to have to watch it, or we could get rather physical and I, emotionally, don’t want that. If it wasn’t so late that night, he would have attempted, I’m sure of that. But… unless we’re only dating each other, it’s not a smart idea. And… I certainly don’t want to date just one person right now. And especially just Randall. Though, I also realize, he doesn’t either. I’ve had a couple of intimate dreams about him.

I keep thinking about Louis. Though I don’t tell anyone. He’s a journalist for “Performance” magazine. It’s a magazine that goes out to the actual performers like Stevie Wonder, Phil Collins, etc. He gets free tickets, etc. to go and review the concert. Pretty exciting. He’s also a huge movie buff. We have a lot in common. He’s, in fact, a whole lot like me. Of course, that may just mean we’ll be great friends.

I’ve already started some of my New Year’s resolutions. One being to be much more discreet about my personal life. I’m kind of a big mouth, or have been in the past. Maybe telling DeeAnn is okay, but that’s about all. I’m not going to limit myself to one person unless THEY say something about it and I consent. Especially not LouAnn here at work. We just don’t ever agree about my personal life, so I need not subject myself to her advice. I’m crazy about her, I just don’t agree with her. Sometimes one has to realize it’s time to keep one’s mouth closed.

SUNDAY - Even after being up until 3:45 or so, I got up and went to church and Sunday School. I’m glad I did. As always, I enjoyed it. Of course, it was the Christmas service. Louis sat by me and I enjoyed him.

When I got home, though, I hit the bed. Randall called me about 1:00 and I was already asleep. He wanted to come over but I turned him down. I WAS really dead, but at the same time, I figured it would be a good idea for him not to be around me after Saturday. He probably would want to snuggle (or more) the whole day and I don’t want that. In my opinion, if my mind is on more than one person, I should be prudent and abstain.

I made this mix tape for John and was gonna send it along with his Christmas card and Kevin K talked me out of it.