DATING AGAIN IN DECEMBER - 1986 - PART 3 (Original)

DECEMBER 23, 1986

Tuesday

I had a solo as shown on program. Jane E. Boren (became a fun joke after that)

Well, last night Kevin Knight came over to give me my Christmas present (since I gave him “Soundboard” magazine.) He gave me a nice, 14k gold necklace with an ivory task wrapped in gold at the end of it. It’s pretty. Probably too expensive for what I got him, but I really appreciate it.

(2021 comment - I kept the necklace and wore other pendants with it until it broke.. kept the ivory tusk piece til a few years ago)

Let me tell you, we had a great conversation. He stayed until about midnight and we eggnogged it up. He told me things he probably shouldn’t have, and I KNOW I told him things I shouldn’t have. But what the heck? I have nothing to hide now.

The conversation (after a couple of eggnogs) went something like this.

Kevin (as he was in the kitchen pouring more eggnog and lots of bourbon) - “Tell me something that’ll make me feel good.”

Me - “I feel you’re much deeper than the rest of your family.” He quickly came back wanting to know more.

I don’t know… we went on and talked a lot! It’s hard to remember it all. I did find out some vital things though. It seems that John told his parents the reason we broke up was I was forcing marriage on him and he didn’t want it so he broke up. He said “I” said that if he didn’t let me know whether we were getting married or not, I wanted it broken off, so therefore, we broke it off. God! That’s not true! I can’t believe he said that. Sure, after a while, I started getting excited and talking marriage more, but, only and I mean only, when he talked about it (practically told me that it would be the beginning of ‘88) and then we discussed it. We spent all of Labor Day weekend (sneak weekend) talking about wedding plans. How dare he say that! OOOH! I guess he’s just immature. More proof. Bless his heart! Maybe one day, he’ll be more honest or, at least, discreet.

Speaking of discreet (or indiscreet,) I figured what the heck? I told Kevin all about the sneak weekends, etc. He couldn’t believe it. Kevin asked “You mean, John was in Texas and didn't even call?” I said “Many times.” He laughed. “I can’t believe that. That’s pretty wild.” I told him anything he wanted to know. I have nothing to lose by it. Maybe I shouldn’t have, but I had fun doing it. I told Kevin I always felt trust and loyalty to him, maybe more than John. Kevin was delighted at all this news. He probably figures he'll store it away in his mental file cabinet to possibly use later if things get bad. All I can say is, John better keep his nose clean around Kevin. Because I let it all rip. Even, really personal things. It was fun.

(2021 comment -somewhere in here I told Kevin that I had made John a mix-tape - yes, I said mix tape - and wanted to give it to him for Xmas. Kevin talked me out of it.)

These were the songs - I still have the tape.

Side 1

King for A Day

Invisible Touch

Glory of Love

Overjoyed

A Matter of Trust

Side 2

Anything She Wants

Sledgehammer

Captain of the Heart

Typical Male

The Time to Remember

DECEMBER 29, 1986

Monday

I had a really good Christmas and an even better weekend. Some things are dwelling on my mind but the weekend WAS good.

I received mostly pajamas (all but one shirt) from everyone. It was kinda funny.

XMAS EVE - I spent the night with Mary and the girls. I wanted (for the first time) to see children wake up on Christmas morning and see what Santa had given them. Mary and I stayed up for quite a while and talked. She told me of some of the escapades between her and Mike (the guy she’s been dating.) She was surprised I wasn’t shocked when she told me and I told her that I had done the same with John. Then she was really shocked. She couldn’t believe that I’m still a virgin and have done such things. But I was in love with John (and Barry) and at least, there’s no chance of pregnancy in what we did. I refer to myself as a technical virgin. (I had told her all this before and she just plain didn’t listen.) She then said “What would Mom and Dad think? You project such a different image than that.” She made me feel guilty and wrong. I didn’t like that. In fact, the more I think about it, the more I feel she (of all people) has no right to make such a statement. Sure, Mom and Dad may think I’m totally innocent, but that’s because they do know I’m a virgin and I keep my mouth shut! I don’t go around telling them and everyone else about my personal life. I wonder what they’d think if they knew she was seeing this Mike guy more and more and furthermore, she’s sleeping with him (in every aspect) and her divorce isn’t even near to be final! She also has two girls to think about. I DO believe she’s affecting more people than me.

You know, I wouldn’t even care what she did, I just get defensive when she puts me down like that. (2021 comment - sigh - story of my life… I really don’t care what other people do, don’t judge, want them to be happy and passionate in life - so why, why WHY do they come after me? Make me live to different standards? I will ask this til I die.)

XMAS DAY - It was fun. The girls were cute and Mary gave me a cute nightshirt. Then I went by Aunt JoAnn and Uncle Lee’s for a while. We didn’t visit long (Uncle Lee was sick) so I was on my way to Mom’s. By the time I got there, Dad had already opened his Beta camera and he was taking videos of us. We had fun. Then we opened gifts between the three of us. I got two pairs of pajamas and a robe. A beautiful teal robe.

Mary, Holly and Caroline came over a couple of hours later, then before too long (5:00 p.m.) Bryant, Barb, her parents and the kids came over and we finished all the gifts. We had a good time. Bryant got a new car, a Honda Acura - Legend. It’s pretty. Even Dad liked it. I spent the night with Mom and Dad, but was tired and went to bed early.

FRIDAY - I went home about noon, took a nap and by the end of the day, had a group of people together to go see Little Shop of Horrors. I thoroughly enjoyed it. It was precious. It went right by the stage version; which I’m glad. Randall and I got along great that night. Everyone (but Randall) left around 12:15 or so. He stayed until 2:45 a.m. Well… Randall and I understand each other…

SATURDAY - I was awakened by the neighbors yelling and screaming at each other. Well, more than that. It was obviously a case of wife beating. After getting up, I heard Walt (my neighbor) walking up the stairs and ran out to see if he's ever heard anything. He said no. I called the police. After a while, the policeman came to my door and said he’d just talked to the couple. They admitted that they just had a fight and were yelling and screaming at each other. The woman said “Yeah, and I’m still mad at him too.” But they went off together in the same car. I told the policeman that “I guess it didn’t do any good to call him.” And he said that by all means, I should always call. I figure, if anything else, it’s disturbing the peace. It certainly disturbed MY peace. After he left, I went up to Walt’s and told him. We talked for quite a while and then he asked me to have breakfast. I said sure, went and fixed up a bit and we went to Denny’s. He’s a nice guy. Not really my type or anything, but nice. Easy to talk to.

When I came back home and we went our separate ways, I noticed a message on my machine. It was Louis Marroquin. He asked me to call him at his mother’s. I did and we arranged to go to a movie and out to eat later. We saw The Morning After. I enjoyed the movie and him but suddenly felt a little like I wasn’t worthy of him. I sorta feel that it would have been great to meet him at 18 or 19 (before Kevin Anderson came around.) Actually, I felt fine until he dropped me off at my apt. And I was left all alone. Sounds sad, huh? Well, I ended up playing the piano quite a bit and had fun doing that, but every once in a while, tears would fall. I really didn’t know why, at the time. (2021 comment - I think Mary really did a number on me… - just wrong)

SUNDAY - I invited Randall over first thing for breakfast. I didn’t go to church. Both Melinda and Bea weren’t going to be there, so I had no motivation. We had a good time and cuddled, etc. until we went to a movie later with Barry and Kevin (at night.) We were alone from 11:00 or so until 5:30 a.m. I have to admit, I thought about John a whole lot. I couldn’t have a completely great time because he (not ALL the time) was popping in my mind every once in a while. I’m not telling anyone that I’m not completely over John. That's it, you know. That’s why I can’t seem to have an absolutely great time. He doesn’t deserve me talking about it.

DECEMBER 30, 1986

Tuesday

I talked to DeeAnn just a little last night about my anger towards him. But very little. To think of all the charges I’m still paying off from our NY road trip back home.

I later watched a little t.v. (a movie called Love Thy Neighbor with John Ritter and Penny Marshall. Oh, great news! While watching, I saw a crazy commercial about cutting your taxes if you buy a Honda Acura right now, and guess who was in the commercial? I’m talking about the main part? Carl! Yes, the old boyfriend, Carl Scaglione. It’s a good thing I saw him just recently, or I might not have recognized him. I think it’s great.

I just called Carl. He was asleep, so we didn’t talk but a minute. (2021 comment - so I DID call him after John and I broke up, always wondered) - He said he’d call when he was more alert. I tell you why I DO like the single life. I can call anyone I durn well please, go out with anyone and not feel pressured by anybody. I like that feeling. Just this past week, I’ve gone out with or will go out with:

Randall (twice)

Louis

Walt

Robert (Bevis for the first time in a long time)

Carl

And more to follow. Why not?

I just talked to Mary and she’s a little lonely because she hasn’t anything to do tomorrow night (New Year’s Eve.) Mike hasn’t called and she figured he would by now. I told her to get on the phone and call him. She was hesitant, but I talked her into it. In my opinion, if he has problems with it, it’s his problem, not hers. In this day and age I see nothing wrong with the woman calling the man. (Never did.) I think men kinda like it. I only don’t call them when I’m getting pretty attached so they should have no problems with me calling. It proves that I’m not too attached, I just wanna have a good time. I would call my good friends and go out, so why not prospective guys? Actually right now, I have no use for the word prospective. I just want to have a good time.

DECEMBER 31, 1986

Wednesday

Should auld acquaintance be forgot and never brought to mind

Should auld acquaintance be forgot and days of auld lang syne

(whatever that means)

Last night was a pretty good night for the most part until 10:00. Kevin Knight called. We were having a pretty good conversation, even though he was rubbing it in (his words) that his family were going to Cancun next week. We hadn’t talked long and the phone picked up and… it was John. (2021 - SHOCK do NOT remember this!) He said “Kev, you need to get off the phone.” Kevin said “why?” and he said “I have to call Gina, Gene (or somethings) parents.” I started to say something like just “Hi” or whatever but instead remained a little stunned. We ended the conversation right after that.

God, I got off the phone and started crying. I guess it’s because I was thinking about him SO strongly on the bus last night. I had come up with a “Perfect movie” ending to our story. Hearing his voice practically ruined it for me. But I’m still going to write it.

Come and Get Your Memories

Bette Midler

Come and Get These Memories - YouTube https://www.youtube.com › watch

Lyrics Here's your old friendship ring I can't wear it no more Here's your old love letters I can't read them any more Lover, you've gone from me And left behind so many memories Here's that old teddy bear That you won from me at the state fair Here's some old valentine cards Give it to your new sweetheart Lover, you've gone from me And left behind so many memories Here's our old favorite record Can't stand to hear it anymore It's just an old lingering love song It's in my heart and it's tearing it apart, tearing it apart Because of these memories I never think of anybody, never think of anybody but you So, come on and get'em, come on and get'em baby Come on and get'em and let me found somebody new Come and get these memories Since you've gone out of my life My mind and heart can be at ease Since you've gone out of my life Give them to your new love Give them to your new love So come on and get these memories Since you've gone out of my life Since you've gone out of my life Since you've gone out of my life

Part of me kind of wishes Kevin would disassociate himself with me. ( I have trouble believing me, Janie Boren, just said that.) But that’s how I feel.

(2021 WHATTTT? No writing about Gina?? Who is Gina? - I know now.. - STAY TUNED DEAR READER)

Somewhere in here ?? - Kevin K did tell me about Gina.. it would HAVE to be the nite for Christmas when we divulged sooo much - he didn't know about sneak weekends, I didn't know John had met someone else, etc. In fact he met her the very night I was singing "I Enjoy Being a Girl" and his parents bought me flowers... sooo weird

https://youtu.be/4kBEDi_qCtg

Words by Miami Sound Machine/Gloria Estefan