Girls Just Wanna Have FUN February 1981

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February 1, 1981 Sunday

This weekend has been great. I tell you, I like Carl so much I can’t stand it.

Friday nite, all my friends (closest friend except for DeeAnn) took me to the Magic Time Machine. We had a wonderful time. The waiters brought me a birthday cake.

Afterwards, Carl & I went to his house. We had wine and relaxed. (It was about 12:15 a.m.) I didn’t want to leave him even at 3:00 a.m. when I left. What’s so great about our relationship is we can kiss and hold is we can kiss and hold each other all day without me worrying about him trying something with me. I love it. I enjoyed so much just holding him.

Today we went and saw “Altered States.” It was a strange movie, but the special effects were phenomenal. After that, we went to his house.

He wants to go see a double feature tomorrow nite, but I can’t. I have got to start cracking down on school work. I want to so badly though.

Carl said something yesterday about him going to U.T. next Fall. In a way I feel we ought to go on and call it quits coz I don’t want to be flipped over someone who’s away at college. I’d die. I’ve been through one long-distance romance and it tore me apart.

We sure hit it off well. I’m at the scared stage right now. In every aspect of my life. In a way, I’d just like to quit school and work, so I could have a lot of social life and independence. Yet, I know there’s no such thing as all play and no work. Part of me wants to continue school, get my Music Therapy degree and have a steady, well-paying job. And then there’s the part of me that wants to blow it all off and get married. No parental problems. No worry about sexual problems, no school problems. OOOOOH! I’m confused!

I really wouldn’t want to get married, I just want out on my own. I’m 20 years old and need freedom. But that takes money. And I don’t have enough money to work part-time, go to school and have my own place.

OOOOOH! I WANT FREEDOM!

CARL!

I adore him!!

We’ve been dating one month! Dec. 26 is the first time I met him.

CARL ANTHONY SCAGLIONE!

February 2, 1981 Monday

Today was a weird day. It started strange when Cam was real rude to me in Choir. The only reason I could think of was that he was upset at me for not being at Mike’s after Magic Time Machine. I figured he got a little jealous. (He still cares a lot).

After school, I drove by Carl’s to tell him I Couldn't go tonite, but he wasn’t home.

When I came home, I called Cam. We talked for about 1 hour and a half. Cam seems to think that Carl’s not good for me. (I think Cam is still jealous). He said Carl’s too old for me. Cam doesn’t know that Carl’s only 20. One thing though, Cam convinced me not to get serious about Carl and date other people. As of right now, I haven’t any big offers from other guys and I’m not interested in anyone else. (There are a couple of new cuties in Choir)> Maybe they’re worth working on.

I sure do enjoy Carl’s company though. I know that for sure.

You know, I still think I’d go back to Tracy if he wanted me. Cam made me think a whole lot today. I’m still gonna date Carl. I’ll keep giving him a chance. I enjoy his company immensely. Also enjoy his romantic side. So something must be right.

Tracy’s the only guy I’d go back to. I think even Russell has pushed me too far. Tracy was wonderful. He’s so brave, respectful, talented. Course so is Carl. They have a lot of the same good qualities. Talent, courtesy, romanticism, etc. I think Carl likes me more than Tracy did. Yet, Tracy was awfully flipped over me at one time. He’d call me long-distance once a week. He came up here to see me quite a bit. He also spent his whole weekend with me, even when I came in late on Friday nite, he’d be there waiting for me.

(2021 comment - Glad I wrote about this part of Tracy - I was gonna add it, if needed).

On the next page, I’m gonna analyze Carl and Tracy - Pros and Cons

February 4, 1981 Wednesday

Today was a fair day. I felt pretty bad this morning so I skipped Voice and Dancing. I did make it to Choir, Theory & Piano.

Tomorrow Scott & Kenneth are leaving for their Air Force training. Carl and I are gonna try to see them off. I hope we get to. (2021 comment - WHERE is Kenneth Trent??)

Carl called tonite. I sure enjoy talking to him. I was smiling so much my cheeks hurt.

Guess who i saw today? Kevin A. He was with some girl with his arm around her. I couldn’t make myself walk past them. It infuriated me. I know he saw me. I wish he hadn’t registered at Richland. I don’t hate him, I really don’t, I just am disappointed in his character.

I cannot wait until the weekend. Mom and Dad are for sure going out of town. Ifeel like watching the sun rise. It may be too cold though. I’m gonna smother Carl this weekend. OH I do like him!

1) Carl

2)Tracy

February 5, 1981 Thursday

I didn’t get to see Scott & Kenneth off at the airport. The plane didn’t leave until 5:00.

I did go over to Carl’s however. It was all kinda strange. I don’t understand him. I feel he’s playing games with me. I don’t like games. He has to work Friday and Sunday. So I’ll only see him Saturday. Maybe we can go to a movie and back over here for some wine and rest. That sounds nice. I’d like to have a quiet evening.

Guess who’s in town? Rob, Bryant’s friend. You know, the cute one. Get this, Dad told me to accidentally go over there & say Hello. Since Carl has to work tomorrow nite, I’ll go over (all dressed up) and smile prettily and say hello. Mom even told me to wear my pretty skirt. I tell you, I can tell when they like someone. I’ll admit that he’s a doll, personality & looks. Rob’s the one who always told me I was a knock-out (even when I was young). I remembered that. He’s always been my favorite out of Bryant’s friends. In fact, I’ve always had a crush on him. He’s about 26 or so. You know, now that I’m 20, 26 doesn’t sound that much older.

Even though Carl looks and acts older than 20, he occasionally reflects his age. I mean, he can’t help being 20, but already I’m feeling more mature than him. Maybe not. Most guys I know are ridiculously immature. Carl’s not. But Rob would be better. (Mark would be great if he wasn’t married). Too bad.

Dee Ann sent me a belated birthday card today.

Gotta GO!

I hope B.C. & Therese have nothing planned for tomorrow nite, so I can come over.

I saw Russell today. He came in Jim’s office at Richland while Sherri & I were singing. My heart stopped. The door knocked, I opened it and there he was. God, I still love him too. (along with Tracy). It’s funny, I was thinking about him a lot last nite. I couldn’t hardly talk sensible today. After he left, I looked at Sherri and said “After all this time, I still love him.” I got so hyper and giddy when I was talking to him.

That’s the way Iget around he and Tracy. So bubbly. As far as I know they’re the only ones who do that to me. Mark just makes me nervous (shaky). These 2 guys make me smile a lot.

OH GOODNESS!!

Russell looked so good. I was so embarrassed. I just babbled on about how we never were in a class (Choir) together. I don’t know what made me bring all that up. Except I was thinking what a shame. Anyway, I sounded like a dumb lovesick girl.

(2021 comment - If I haven’t said it before during these recent entries, Russell was and has remained my FIRST love…. - He taught me what I wanted, how to be treated/wooed, and wanting much laughter).