John, THERE IS SOMETHING ABOUT YOU - MAY 1986 PT. 2

MAY 6, 1986

https://youtu.be/E-zP66eSLto

There is something About You

Tuesday

Well, when I got home from Voice Class last night, there was a message on my machine from John and he just can’t wait until June 13 when I come to NYC, he made reservations to come down to see me on May 23, Memorial Day weekend. That means he’ll have three whole days here. God, I love him! He loves me so much in return. That’s great! Even though I’m incredibly tired right now and my throat is a tiny bit sore; I Feel absolutely wonderful.

I’m also not very happy right now in my job, and am desperately wanting another one. But even with all these things, I am so much in love and couldn’t be happier personally. John Arthur Knight is the best thing that has ever happened to me in my life. And you know what’s great? When I mention that I might take extra voice lessons or take special music classes (which means less time with him this summer) he says “Go for it, you’d love that.” That shows he really loves me. He wants to see ME happy. So different from Barry.

Speaking of Barry, he wants me to come over tonight. He has a new apartment in Eastgate and wants me to come and see it. He called Sunday (left a message) and again here at work yesterday. He knew all about NYC and me going to see John and was “Great” when he found out that I had a wonderful time. I’m so grateful and fortunate that we are good friends after all we’ve been through. I think that way about Cam also. We are still friends after all the hell we’ve put each other through. That’s my style and I’m proud of it!

MAY 7, 1986

Wednesday

I found earlier (I called Jeannie, John’s mom) in a roundabout way that she doesn’t know John is coming home on May 23. I figured she would; but through our conversation, you could tell she has no idea.

MAY 8, 1986

Thursday

I talked to John on the phone last night. His parents will be out of town that weekend he’s going to be here. I wanted to go with a group of people to see Gone with the Wind and to Snuffer’s, but a lot of people will be out of town. Robert, Keith, DeeAnn and Brian will all be out of town. I’ll have to call others.

MAY 13, 1986

Tuesday

Guess what? John is coming up this Thursday night? And that’s not instead but including next week also? Isn’t that great? His flight comes in at about 7:30 p.m. I’m going to call Bob and Jeannie and see if I can ride with them to the airport. The problem is, I'm wondering how I’m going to get to their house from my car (or Downtown) and then to DFW in time for his arrival. That’ll be great. And then the next night, Mary is having her Arlington Civic Chorus (all music by Haydn) and John will go to that along with Mom, Dad, Bryant and Barb. I can’t wait! This is really a good weekend for him to come.

Friday night Bob and Jeannie want to take us to the theatre. That'll be great! I really believe our families fit together. (2021 - after reading this several times, I guess John decided to tell them he's coming home)

Even though… I sometimes feel hesitant. I don’t know why. I just do. For example, last Friday, I saw Kenneth (friend on the bus that I’ve gone out with before) and he said “Hi Gorgeous!” then he said “Oh, I forgot you’re attached.” Then before I knew it I said “I don’t know, my single days are not through yet.” And he said “Good for you.” I could have killed myself later for saying that. Maybe I’m just being cautious this time around. I don’t know. I know in all aspects John is the best guy I’ve EVER dated, but I can’t seem to totally admit that to myself. We’ll at least wait until after the 3-4 month mark and see. My God! It’s only been a month and ½. What do you expect?

Earlier, I talked to Jeannie to ask about riding with them to the airport. She said sure. But by the time I got off the phone, I felt sweaty and nervous. It’s because of sending them my resume and still no comment from them. That tends to make me nervous. I’ve about decided that I asked for too much money. The only reason I did was because everything I’ve looked at (in the Paper) salesmen make from $18,500-$20,000 on average; even ones with no experience. Training positions. Maybe I am dreaming. I should have given a separate price for a secretarial position. I would go as far down as $16,000 annually for an office job. I just want to make sure it has a lot of responsibility and I want to work with people. One reason I want to make quite a bit is why I’d quit this job for not a whole lot more when I’m close to getting 3 weeks vacation, good benefits and for the most part I like it. The hours are great and my boss is great. I’m just a little tired of the girls right now. And I NEED more money. I’m going to get the paper and REALLY check out salaries before seeing them Thursday. Then I’m going to ask them on the way to the airport (if Kevin doesn’t go) about all of it. I’m willing to negotiate. Also I don’t want any hassle since they ARE John’s parents. But I don’t want to work for just ANYBODY. Oh I’m in turmoil right now. I’ll be glad when I come to some sort of decision. (2021 comment - I don’t remember ANY of this - lol)