MAY MEMORIES Pt. 2

May 15, 1981 Friday

Tonite was our last Choir concert. Even though I’ll be back next year, there are a lot of others who won’t, so it was quite sentimental. The concert went very well. We sang

Of Crows and Clusters

Come Away Death

Antiphona de Morte

Then we combined choirs (including Select) to sing a selection of Mozart songs.

(2021 -This nite reminded me of the last SG concert when Russell S. was leaving)

Afterwards it was PARTY TIME! A Wonderful party I tell you, there’s a guy, Barry B, that has to be the sweetest guy around. He’s also so much fun. He, Brooks Lay & John Parnell are three of my favorite people. When everybody started leaving, I hugged all GOOD-BYE. I’m gonna do my best to get another party this summer.

Gotta go!

I’m sleepy!

May 16, 1981 Saturday

Tonite Cam, Mark, Kevin Q, Nancy Q, Bradley, Brooks & I went to see Dawn of the Dead (mid-nite movie). Before that, they were over here and we just visited & had a good ole time.

You know, Cam is rather peculiar in his attitudes towards me. One time he’s telling me that he’s in love with me & always has been, yet he never makes the initiative to kiss me (or just put his arm around me). Tonite he acted totally uninterested in me. He devoted all his attention to Nancy. (who’s only 16). I admit I got rather jealous.

On the other hand, Mark was quite aware of me & tried to take the initiative, & I wouldn’t let him. (I’m not interested in him at all)..

Today Cam & I also drove Phyllis (Cam’s sister) to Waxahachie. She’s a lot of fun.

Gotta go

Soo Tired!

It’s 3:50 a.m.

Dawn of the Dead was gross! But fun.

May 17, 1981 Sunday

Tomorrow is my voice jury & last day of school. HALLELUJAH!

Today Sherri & I found an apartment. It’s called Countryside. Located on Forest near Abrams. It’s a 2 bedroom, 1 ½ baths, big living area, big kitchen, many closets, washer & dryer, dishwasher, disposal, refrigerator, stove, oven, etc. It’s a studio apartment. Also it has a nice patio & 4 swimming pools. It’s located right by school & work. PERFECT, right? I’ll be rooming with Vera, Sherri & me. We need to put our $25 down soon. I ought to be moved in completely by July 1. Mom & Dad said I could take Alex’s beds, a deacon’s bench, any extra dishes, pots and pans.

I’m SOO EXCITED!!

Gotta go!!

May 18, 1981 Monday

Tonite Cam, Barry, Ann Peters, Allison, Helena, Lydia, Johnnie & Janet went to Pizza Inn for a surprise party for Rita Powers (Big 30th birthday). Then we went to Barry’s house & John Parnell came over. We had a blast!

Gotta go!

I saw Dee Ann today.

May 21, 1981 Thursday

Tonite Cam & I watched Madame in Manhattan at his house. Then we got 2 slurpees & went to the park. We had a real good time. It was Central Park, & I saw where I used to have our football games when I was a cheerleader (6th & 7th grade). I got quite sentimental. Cam and I also swung & slid down the slide.

FUN!

I liked it!

Gotta go!!

May 24, 1981 Sunday

Today wasn’t so hot. Cam came over & we went by Sherri’s to get Cam’s ring. She informed me that Blue Cross & Blue Shield were going broke, so she wasn’t getting a job there. I started balling when I got home. I cried practically all day with Cam here. I was quite upset.

I also am coming down (well, actually have) a cold. I had a 100 degree fever.

I had some people over last night. I was more with Mark Summers than anyone. (Remember him? I’ve known him since 7th grade). He has a little brother named Andrew, who has been in many plays at S.G. when I was there.

Gotta go!!

It’s actually 5:49 a.m. Monday morning . Couldn’t sleep

I’ve got work all day tomorrow.

9-6

On Memorial Day

BOO!!!!

I watched Thoroughly Modern Millie tonite. It made me feel much better.

May 25, 1981 Monday

I’ve been sick all day & had to stay home. Truly. I stayed in my night gown. I had cramps & of course this miserable cold. Cam came over for a couple of hours & cleaned the house for me, before Mom & Dad got home. Dee Ann came later about 5:30 p.m. & stayed until 10:30 p.m. We played Monopoly & I smeared her.

I just re-read yesterday’s entry and realized I left something out. The reason I got so upset is coz I probably won’t get an apartment like I thought since Sherri hasn’t a good job. (She also hasn’t been saving). And I have. Even at Sears, she’s making more money than me, yet I have more saved? (Explain that).

Oh, at my party, Cam & Sherri got together. Cam won’t admit it. But I know they did. They walked out of the den with his arm around her. Gone for most of the night. (He was drunk). In his state, (after she left), he kept saying “Sherri’s a nice girl.” & giggling. When Cam & I went to get his ring at Sherri’s the next day, he was hesitant to go. When she came out, she had hickies all over her neck. (I about died laughing). Cam claims he never even kissed her? Then whoo did? He’s a liar. I’ll get it out of her. Even Kae Lyn came over & told Dee Ann that Cam answered the door pulling himself together & bluntly telling Kae that he had a girl in the old den & he had to go back. How junior-highish. At least he could admit it. (& I know he wasn’t that drunk).

It’s funny how Cam seems to have no trouble flirting & making a pass to Sherri, Dee Ann, Sharon, Nancy, etc. But when it comes to me, he is bewildered. I think he’s truly “in love” with me. I’m not so easy to obtain as the others. Not for long anyway. I’m glad. Don’t get me wrong, Dee Ann’s a good girl in most cases,, but Cam sees us quite differently. He practically ignores me when we’re with the other girls. But, I’m the one he calls if he wants to talk, or just good company. He tries so hard to get me jealous, & it kinda worked with Nancy, but now that I’ve figured it all out, I just become more flattered He could make a good husband, if I just felt something for him. I do feel .love, but not romantic love.

Enough on Cam!

I work tomorrow 2-6

Gotta go!!

My car has a flat tire. I’ll have to call Greg (I guess) to come get me.

Need sleep.

Dee Ann spent the nite Saturday & we talked until 6:00 a.m.

I still care for Carl!

I want to go to Chili’s this weekend & see him, to see how I really feel. SCARY!

May 27, 1981 Wednesday

I talked to Sherri today & she’s going for a job interview tomorrow. I pray she gets it. This means there’s still a chance for the apartment. Believe it or not. (Vera, do you ever remember being in on this plan??)

She also told me that she & Cam did definitely get together. I knew it. I went to Cam’s tonite & he finally admitted to it. We had a long talk (a good one). I asked him why it was so easy for him to try things with Sherri & not me? He said coz he idolizes me too much. (I love to hear that). I need to hear it every once in a while.

I’m gonna get my $200 deposit saved, put it in the bank & then wait on Sherri. She better start saving fast. I’m not gonna tell Mom & Dad about anything until my landlord has the deposit. Meanwhile, I’ll be looking at cars so just in case the apartment falls thru, I’ll have a car in line. I’ve been looking at the K cars. They’re cute.

WORSHIP A GODDESS; BUT LOVE ME

Nothing is more flattering

Than being

High on a pedestal

Nothing is more wonderful

Than being

Loved

Nothing is more frustrating

Than being

Idolized

I want to be

Cared for

Respected

Even adored

As long as I’m

Treated like

A woman

An equal

A friend

Not a goddess!

That’s something

Mythical…

(dedicated to Cam Craig)