November - No Turning Back Pt. 2

November 1, 1980 (Saturday)

Hello world! I’m on Cloud 9. Kevin just left. I’m more fond of him than ever. Oct. 20th, he sent me some carnations & yesterday he sent a ½ dozen yellow roses. I met him mom last night. She’s sweet. (I just found out that Kevin & his sister, Karen are adopted).

Last night (Halloween) we went to the S.G. homecoming & then to a haunted house. Today we went to a pancake supper & to his house then to my house.

Mom & Dad were at John & Mary’s & Holly’s. We had a fabulous time. Nov. 3rd, we’ll be our 1 month anniversary. More on Kevin later.

Did you notice a new name with John & Mary? It happens to be a little girl named Holly Allison. My 2nd niece. She’s a cutie. She was born Oct. 27 at 7:15 p.m. She weighed 6 lbs. Even, & was 19 inches long. She looks a lot like Mary.

(find baby pics of Holly & Bryant 3)

Dee Ann came home last weekend. Dee Ann, Margaret, Mike, Kevin & I went to Spanish Galleon & to Hyatt Regency. Dee Ann likes Kevin, so does her mom. My parents love him. His parents like me.

1) I need to go to sleep.

2) I made a 100 on a History test

I like Kevin much more than anyone else!

BYE!!

November 3, 1980 (Monday)

I just came home from Kevin’s. WOW! Do I like him. I find myself attracted to him physically & mentally. He likes me pretty much too.

I took a Biology test today. I think I did rather well on it.

Today was the first day of a new class I’m taking. It’s call “What do you want from a relationship?” It’s very interesting.

Gotta go! I’m tired.

KEVIN!!!

November 4, 1980 (Tuesday)

ELECTION DAY!!!

Well, today was my first presidential election. And guess who won?

RONALD REAGAN!!

YAHOO!!!!!!!!

That’s who I voted for.

He whooped Carter.

I’m so glad.

I bet Dee Ann is teed off. She’s a Carter fan.

KEVIN!!!!

November 10, 1980 Monday

Hello! I have a lot to write. My mood is rather strange. I’m definitely not in a bad mood, & I’m not in a real good mood. I’m very confused, as you can probably tell. First of all, school is bothering me. The Biology test I thought I did so well on, I flunked. I made a 49 on it. I swear I don’t know what went wrong. All my answers were correct. I may have to drop it. I’m real upset about it. But I need a 3.0 to get into T.W.U. and a D won’t hack it.

Second thing is Kevin. My feelings are confused. I know I definitely don’t want to drop him, yet something’s wrong. Since Nov. 1st, we’ve become quite intimate (nothing serious) - “I’m a Good Girl I am” yet instead of feeling good about our relationship, I feel threatened. He claims he’s corrupting me, but of course he hasn’t. I feel like I’m keeping secrets from him when I’m really not. Oh, I don’t know, I’m totally confused. He scares me, coz I find myself wanting him even when I’m not in love with him. I talked to him on the phone tonite (he called) & he seemed edgy. He told me that he was in a weird mood, & didn’t feel like thinking too hard. He just wanted to relax. Has the flame died? Or are we both just in rotten moods? I’m gonna wait a while before I do or say anything. Peoples feelings can’t change in one week. (Make that 4 days)

(Of course, one day Tracy bought me roses & the next day he dumped me).

I DON’T KNOW!

This weekend I want to have a good talk with him. It’s mandatory!

HELP!

November 12, 1980 (Wednesday)

I haven’t heard from Kevin since Monday. I doubt Dee Ann’s coming this weekend, but I sure need to talk with her. If he doesn’t call by 7:00 tomorrow nite, I’m gonna call him.

We went & saw Margaret & Bryant III tonite. Marg & I had a great time playing. She’s just a doll.

I skipped school today. I needed the rest.

I don’t know what else to say

I’m still confused!

I think I’m gonna start confiding in Kathleen. She came over last Saturday & we had a good talk. She’s easy to relate to. (2020 comment - not sure I ever write it in the future, so just relaying that Kathleen & I got an apartment together ‘83?ish for a year or bit more - only roommate I ever had - and we’re still great friends!)

GOOD NITE!

I hope Kevin’s okay.

November 19, 1980 (Wednesday)

Everything is much better now. Kevin & I had a 3 hour talk last Saturday, & it did a lot of good. I feel so much better. We did decide however to settle down a bit & date other people. This way we can see each other without feeling tied down. The problem is, I don’t have anyone in mind who I could date besides Kevin. Maybe I just haven’t been looking.

Dee Ann did come down last weekend. But I was so involved with Kevin that I didn’t get to really visit with her. She’ll be down for Thanksgiving though.

I’m practically all ready for Christmas. I need to get Dee Ann, Kevin, John & B.C. a gift.

Gotta get some sleep!

GOOD NITE!

KEVIN!

November 30, 1980 (Sunday)

I haven’t seen Kevin since the 15th, but he calls frequently. I also haven’t dated anyone else. I don’t really have a desire for anyone in particular.

Dee Ann was here today & she told me that Tim A. (her x-love) is getting married. She is hurt badly. He makes me mad. He never did treat her right. Guys like that make me furious.

I haven’t heard from Kevin since Thanksgiving the 27th. He wanted to come over, but I felt it was a bad time.

I saw Mark last weekend at the cabin. Gay was with him, of course, they’re married. He hugged me & was really glad to see me. I still say he’s one of the best looking guys around.

I don’t think a whole lot about Tracy anymore. I’m sure I’d go out with him if he asked me though.

I’m tired!

1) Kevin

2) Tracy

No one new!

I dropped Biology. (2020 comment - I was in a lab taking a test. We had knocked-out crawdads in a petri dish in front of us that we were gonna dissect after our test… well, as I was studying the words on the test intensely, claws were coming closer & closer and came to the top of my page. I screamed, knocked over my large stool and ran to drop the class) - So there! HA!